Optimism, With a Aspect of Nervousness


Thanks for your whole feedback, textual content messages, emails of encouragement, prayers and for sharing your personal tales. I do know that so many ladies have been the place I’m at now and have come out of remedy feeling robust and wholesome and I do know that I’ll do the identical. I’m feeling extraordinarily fortunate that I discovered it so early.

I met with the oncologist for the primary time at present.

Whereas Mike and I have been ready for the doc to return into the examination room, I advised Mike that I assumed that this appointment can be at a desk, having a dialog about my remedy publish surgical procedure. I didn’t actually take into consideration an examination. Mike advised me that if the physician got here in and was good wanting, he may depart in the course of the examination. Cracking up! 

The oncologist (He wasn’t un engaging, however Mike should have thought so. He stayed.) stated that when ladies sometimes discover a lump of their breast, it’s a lot bigger than the lump that I discovered. So YAY me for understanding my boobies!! He appeared very impressed. I used to be like….I do know my physique dude.

The appointment was extraordinarily informative and I’m studying quite a bit.

Nevertheless….I’m feeling extraordinarily anxious about the truth that I’ve most cancers and no one appears to be in an enormous rush to get it out of me or do something about it! An enormous a part of me is screaming….”What’s the purpose of early detection when you individuals aren’t in any huge hurry to get this out of me???”

It isn’t crucial for me to have any chemo or radiation presently, which is superior. There’s a very small probability that I’ll have some chemo after surgical procedure, and as of proper now, no radiation. That is nice information.

I’m being informed that my tumor is sluggish rising, and that surgical procedure on the finish of this month shall be simply positive. I nonetheless have but to be given a date, and that’s what’s giving me probably the most nervousness. I’m making an attempt actually onerous to belief that they know what they’re speaking about, nevertheless it simply looks like a very very long time to have to attend!

I’m having a double mastectomy with reconstructive surgical procedure and apparently the breast surgeon that may do the mastectomy, and the plastic surgeon that may make my new boobs, are having a tough time discovering a date for me that works for the each of them. So proper now, I’m a scheduling situation.

Being optimistic is definitely fairly straightforward proper now, however I feel principally as a result of I don’t really feel any totally different and it’s all simply speak. Nothing is definitely occurring. It kinda looks like I’m speaking about another person. From time to time, I feel to myself…Oh shit..I’ve most cancers! 


In different information….

Kate and Shelby and the youngsters have been right here for every week, then they left us. For those who missed these publish, Kate (our daughter) and Shelby and their 4 youngsters skilled a flood of their home. A number of issues went to storage, a variety of issues went to the rubbish, and the home has been gutted.

Shelby’s mother and father are out of city, in order that they went to remain at his mother and father home with the youngsters to canine sit.

They left on Friday? The might be again tomorrow night time.

Mike and Shelby have been engaged on the their home like loopy. These two boys have spent the previous few days hanging dry wall. It’s eleven:30 pm and Mike nonetheless isn’t residence. I went down tonight for a number of hours to do what I might. There’s simply a lot nonetheless to do.

Mike was going to do the mudding and taping after hanging all the dry wall, however Kate discovered somebody at this time that may come tomorrow and do it! Mike was ecstatic! Mudding and taping tomorrow meant that all the dry wall needed to be accomplished tonight. There was fairly a bit nonetheless left to do.

Subsequent, we will paint! Then trim, then carpet. Then….they get to maneuver again in! We try to get them again house by the top of the month.


Extra information…..

Tess and Manuel are coming on this weekend from Dallas! They’ve a marriage to go to right here on the town on Saturday, in order that they determined to return in on Thursday and have just a little additional household time with us! Perhaps we will put them to work!


The Job

So….on the very first appointment that Mike and I went to after being recognized, my telephone rang throughout that appointment. It was my territory supervisor. In fact I didn’t reply, however I noticed that he was calling. I knew instantly why he have to be calling. I knew there was just one cause. I used to be proper!

I referred to as him later that afternoon. In any case of this time…….he was calling me to inform me that I used to be lastly going to get my very own assembly. It was not an At Work (which I actually do love each of my At Work teams, however I actually need a assembly outdoors of these) however a Weight Watcher assembly open to the general public!

I obtained to select my day of the week and the time and the assembly can be beginning across the final week in August.

You already know I needed to decline. I informed him what was happening and that I knew it wouldn’t be truthful to have one other Chief get the assembly up and going, then I are available and take over. It’s simply not proper. I needed to decline.

He was very candy and he did promise me that he’s getting different conferences began earlier than the top of the yr and that I’ll get one. So once more, I can be affected person and optimistic, however actually, that sucked.


Weight Watchers

I lastly really feel like I’m again Weight Watchering. I actually haven’t been consuming horrible, however I haven’t been paying an entire lot of consideration both. No planning, no footage, no monitoring, no strolling, no yoga.

These final three days, I didn’t monitor factors, however I did take footage and was very aware about what I ate.

I have to make strolling/yoga (a minimum of one among these!) a precedence. I feel mentally I’m simply pooped. I actually don’t imply to make excuses, however I haven’t felt like I had the time or power. MUST WORK ON THAT!!

I do know that Yoga will tremendously assist with the nervousness.

I’m off to work the meals truck and overlook about the remainder of life for a couple of hours.



Listed here are some eats from the previous few days……

Veggie, Bacon (one slice) and White Candy Potato Hash topped with that lovely YOLK!


Tuna Salad, a couple of Roasted Plantains and plenty of crunchy veggies.

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My favourite Salad!

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Toast with one Wedge of Laughing Cow sprinkled with Every thing However the Bagel Seasoning (nice combo!) with Egg Whites and Cherries.

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I used this bread for the toast and I actually prefer it! One Slice = 2 SmartPoints.

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Once more with the Tuna Salad and Veggies with some Apple Slices.

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And…..once more with the Salad. It’s straightforward. It’s scrumptious. Why not?

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Wine with associates.

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I wanted just a bit one thing earlier than my appointment in the present day, however had a nervous abdomen, so I went with half of this Blueberry RX Bar

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My Hen Salad seemed extra like Grape Salad as we speak, however these grapes have been so juicy I couldn’t assist however add quite a bit to this salad!

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I exploit this mayo and I like it too!

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I do love the Dealer Joe Roasted Plantains, however I discovered these at Entire Meals they usually style simply nearly as good!

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I acquired house at round 9:00, so I needed one thing straightforward.

Sausages, Bell Peppers and some Potatoes that have been already cooked tossed within the skillet! Straightforward…..

I ate about half of this, saved the remaining for the hubs.

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 Loving these! I discovered these at Entire Meals.

One Sausage = 2 SmartPoints!

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2017 Objectives
Make time every week to Meal Plan
Drink one hundred ounces of water every day
Train 5 days every week
Eat three meals and one snack every day
FOUR one hundred Mile Strolling Challenges this yr! (This aim has modified just a little now that I’ve this fabulous Fitbit.)


When I discovered this, I knew it was good for this publish!

I completely really feel like a turtle proper now, shifting so sluggish via this entire course of, however on the similar time, feeling constructive and optimistic.

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“love the life you reside, reside the life you’re keen on”

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